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Past
Life Wounds / Current Life Triggers
Casey
came to me because she was putting her house on the market with her husband. They were happily married and outside of the
normal problems couples might have, at least in that current time in their lives there wasn’t a major problem with the
relationship. Regardless Casey sat there wringing her hands on the edge of tears explaining how she was unable to sleep at
nights and that she would pace the floors while her husband slept just wracked with anxiety and weeping at the thought of
selling her house. Rather that go on with such suffering she was on the edge of deciding not to put the house on the market
despite the fact that both she and her husband wanted to. As I worked with her to focus deeper on what might really be going
on, she said “ They’re taking it all away” “ It’s unique & never going to happen again” Obviously this was another character within her speaking. As the session evolved she
went into a past life being a poor but self sufficient black woman, who owns a small house by working very hard. One day some
white men that she has had casual business with come to visit, but end up barging their way into her house and sexually assaulting
her. This results in her completely collapsing in upon herself, she deeply shuts out the outside world and her life takes
a downward turn that only continues to get worse as that past life goes on. Her house and she fall into decay and disarray
and she eventually dies lonely, sad and bitter. I worked with her to heal and resolve the wounds and imprints from that life.
She contacted me a few weeks later to say that she put the house on the market with not a shred of anxiety and already had
offers.
In Casey’s
life it was not truly her that was overcome with anxiety and grief at the thought of selling her house, it was who she was
in the past. The poor woman she had been that was still grieving having lost everything. The rape had caused her to feel everything
had been taken away from her, and indeed it had as she was emotionally unable to cope afterwards. When we have had wounds
in past lives that lie in our consciousness unresolved and unhealed they affect our present life in either mild or severely detrimental
ways.
Styles or Approaches to Past life Work
Some past life work is done from an investigational perspective and is used to provide answers to "who was I in the
past"? "Where did I live"? "What were the cultures like that I lived in"? I call this form
of past life work 'psychic archeology' The result of this approach is gained knowledge and is often used by those who
wish to prove past lives. Another approach is to use past life work as a form of Psycho/Spiritual healing.
Past Life Therapy (PLT), in the style in which I was trained and teach,
is essentially a trauma therapy. The work is known as Deep Memory Process further referred to as DMP, and was developed by Jungian, Roger Woolger Ph.D. He is known as a pioneer in the field of using Past Life Regression
as a therapy and has authored several books. “Other Lives, Other Selves” is his book that is now considered a
classic in this arena further information on Deep Memory Process (DMP) can
be found at
http://www.rogerwoolger.com/woolgerusa.html DMP is designed to go directly into the core issues in your current life that may have thier roots in the past.
These issues can be surfacing in your current life through your body, emotions or mind.
Some complexes and issues I have used Deep Memory Process to heal and resolve are:
- Lost Love
- Unrequited Love
- Wounds from Sexual Abuse
- Isolation / Alienation
- Abondonment
- Powerlessness
- Depression
- Grief / Sorrow
- Clarify Sense of Purpose
- Suicidal Thoughts
- Guilt
- Repressed Emotions / Memories
- Fears / Phobias
- Psychic Invasion
- Low Self Esteem
- Chronic Pain
- Physical Ailments / Illnesses
- Obssesive Thoughts
- Anxiety
- Anger / Rage
- Healing the Inner Child
Deep Memory Process (DMP) is based on the principles of how trauma imprints and what is needed to
resolve and heal it. It is understood as a basic idea that all souls incarnate with a past, and in that past, traumas were
experienced, these are the samskaras that carry from lifetime to lifetime. Since
the psyche is continuing to recreate and re-experience whatever the original trauma was, this is the same energy that is used
to correct the trauma; re-experiencing, but now in a therapeutic way; thus completing unfinished impulses. It is essentially homeopathic – a little of like cures like.
When trauma happens, a part of the psyche splits off and remains that way, this part, is from
that point on, out of synch with the total psyche. It goes off or becomes buried and has a separate experience than the rest
of the being, often it is the physical body and it’s subtle counterpart the Etheric body, which holds the true memory
of the trauma. This is where the principle of embodying the past life character instead of viewing it are important. Separation
from the character and detached observation happen later in the spirit world (Bardo). By embodying the character fully, all
the subtle bodies (etheric, emotional, mental) are beginning to become realigned in the re-experiencing of the event. And
information that might have been stored as pure emotion or somatic imprints, below the threshold of mental awareness, are
able to surface in the light of consciousness and be released. In this way the
client is guided and encouraged to not relax but to fully be in their body in an active way, feeling the entire event as much
as possible.
It is a misconception that
past life memories are always retrieved visually or that this is the only way to work with past lives. In fact it is a patriarchal
bias that is predominate in Western culture that the head or mental body is superior to the body or emotions (Cartesian mind-body
split). And unfortunately, many conventional therapies follow this model, the natural wisdom of the body and emotions are
viewed as something to detach from, analyze or to be controlled. Seemily, quite afraid of what powerful emotions might release,
they are shunned therapeutically for a more controlled mental expression (mostly viewing from a distance or talking about it). But if an inner part of you is enraged, the emotional body will not be healed fully by talking about
it. Kinesthetic (somatic / tactile) and sentient ways of knowing beyond logical
mental overlays are encouraged and honored equally in this form of work. In fact
to activate kinesthetic memory movement is required; if we think about a
shaman entering a trance state, in many instances it is rhythm and movement that get them there, not passively lying back
in a relaxed state. This is where the principles of psychodrama and gestalt are used in this process. Thus one might experience past life memories along with the story-line as sensation, emotion, or simple
direct knowing. I personally have had my body tell a complete past life story with no visual memory. Because I re-experienced
that life, one in which I died during torture, so deeply in my emotional and physical body with minimal mental interference,
the original traumas were released to the surface quite readily. That lifetime was one of three that after completing them
finally healed my panic attacks of 10 years. To see how the process works I have described a typical session.
Astrological
Understandings with a Typical Session
To start with I spend time with each client before the process identifying
issues, the birth chart is used in this to also to illuminate further the dynamics that are present. For example, a client
may be talking to me about how they seem unable to find meaningful work. Every job they have is a drag and they eventually
end up getting fired because they do a bad job anyway. They also don’t have any meaningful relationships, and thus feel
estranged and lonely. Let’s imagine that this client has a 10th
house Pluto, or a South Node in Capricorn. Certainly work related issues are
part of the karmic theme. From what they just told me it is easy to see that they are subconsciously recreating a trauma in
this case, one of a past life character that feels it failed so miserably they are afraid to try again. This inner character
is acting like a silent saboteur behind the scenes, setting up situations that are destined to fail, this is a typical Capricorn
theme. If they haven’t said the words already, I might ask them on this
theme “ What I hear you saying is that you feel like a failure?” In this scenario, most likely the client will
readily agree. We now have our starting point for work to begin.
Now we put the feeling of failure into the present with a charged phrase. The client can now lie
down and start using the phrase “I’ve failed”; they are guided to start to free associate with that phrase
to any other thoughts and feelings that arise. In this case, most likely they will start to feel sadness, remorse or even
desperation. Other thoughts may arise “ I’ve failed them” “ If only I had done more” already
you can see that the thoughts are not from the current life but are the inner past life character speaking.. The thoughts
and feelings are worked with and intensified and the person is guided back into the memory from whence they actually originated.
This is only one example of the process of how to retrieve memories.
With this induction and phrase the client will typically be right in the past life memory after
the failure occurred. In this case let’s say the client finds himself standing on a precipice overlooking a burning
village. He may be overcome with emotions at this point, and the realization that although he tried to save them he failed
in some way. The story is then moved backwards and forwards moving from scene to scene to piece together the story. Each new
scene brings not only awareness of what is happening but the client is guided to be in the thoughts and feelings associated
with it. In keeping with the Capricorn theme, let’s say this was the story of a mayor type person of a small village.
This man was well liked in his position of authority and had a fairly uneventful life up until the time that the political
landscape started to change. Perhaps the region was threatened by invasion and the regional leaders were acting irresponsibly
and this particular village, being in the outskirts was highly vulnerable. So this mayor now leaves the village to meet with
the regional or national leaders, to get them to send troops, pass laws whatever it is he needs from them, he leaves with
the clear intent to protect and save his family, home and village.
Upon his return, he comes across the cliffs and sees his village burning. He is too late, he knows he lost everything now, his wife his children, neighbors all gone. He sinks into deep grief
and despair. In this state he admonishes himself harshly, “If only I had done more” “ I’ve failed
them”. He is encouraged to fully feel the depth of this despair and the full impact it has on his being. This being
a critical point in the story called a “shut down” moment. A vital part of his soul may become repressed or split
off at this point. Moving forward through the life we find this is the case, he lives on with deep suppressed grief, his life becomes dull and meaningless, he
never wants a position of authority again and does only menial work, just enough to get by. He never forms other intimate
relationships and dies alone, miserable and full of self punishment and recriminations. He is guided through to the end of
that life and the death experience, whatever it is, capturing the impressions of all the bodies, physical, emotional and mental
at the point of death.
He has re-experienced the original trauma, and now the second and most crucial part of the healing
begins; finishing the unfinished business. Since we know that consciousness survives death, it is possible to follow it in
PLT through the death process into the afterlife. The method I work with was based loosely on the Tibetan Buddhist understanding
of the Bardos. The Bardo is a transitional state, the term is most commonly used for the state after death and before reincarnation
although in the Buddhist view all states of existence are Bardo states. The transitional plane between life and death, when
the elements of the body are breaking down is the Bardo of Dying. It is at this time traditionally that a Lama or priest would
read the Bardo Thotrol or Thodol ( The Tibetan Book of The Dead) to the dying or recently deceased person. It tells them not
to fear death, and explains to them the experiences they will have on the other side so that they can safely navigate through
these planes. It warns that once awareness is not in a body it will continue to create a reality in the after life. The person
is urged to turn from the living, to die with peace of mind and heart so that they do not remain in the lower Bardos and these
attachments are not recreated and experienced as reality on the other side. The Tibetans describe the light that is perceived
immediately after death, and that one must recognize this light as their own true
“Buddha’ nature to merge with it. But they also warn there are other lights, one is the light of ones own individuated
mind. If one fails to see through the illusions and merge with the true light one will remain in the lower Bardos which eventually
lead to rebirth. Many souls obviously do not achieve this state at dying they wander confused and lost in the Bardos and eventually
are reborn.
In working with many cases over the years it is apparent
to me that it is only a part of the soul that remains in the lower Bardos, I think of them as split-off psychological complexes
frozen in time. This is the fragmenting effect that trauma has on the psyche. In Shamanic terms it would be described as a
soul fragment that is split off and stuck in a kind of tape loop, replaying it’s worries, fears, and unresolved complexes. It is not the entire energy of the soul that is earthbound but a fragment of the original
incarnated personality. Thus, a dying thought of “ I can’t leave them” for example, plays over and over immediately after death at such an increased rate it can fix the attention of the newly
departed soul on the earth plane, causing it to miss it’s opportunity to fully ascend to higher planes. Similar to the
way an obsessive thought can fix the total awareness of an incarnated person on one tiny detail. Such a dying thought can
take over the awareness of the departing consciousness causing it to remain partially earthbound, obsessively focused on it’s
single objective.
The Buddhists and other traditions such as Hinduism understand that one of the main objectives
of life is to be able to die well, thus to achieve eternal freedom from the earth plane or cycle of rebirth. The traditions
that have a place for reincarnation in their beliefs all have similar teachings – it is of utmost importance to the
evolutionary well being of the soul to die as consciously as possible. They explain that the intensity and weight of unfinished
desires, emotions and thoughts in life, slow and even retard the soul’s progress after death, like taking too much baggage
with you on a long journey. Thus they teach that by limiting desires, purification of ones thoughts and emotions during life
the afterlife passage to higher planes will be easier to complete. Anyone who works in
the style of PLT that follows the consciousness into the after-life, will report that many do not perceive the light after
death, they are still caught in their emotions and dying thoughts, they are still looking for their loved ones, or angry at
the ones who killed them etc…. That is why, in PLT the state of mind and emotions at death, are most important to capture
and bring to consciousness during the re-experiencing.
A main principle of the Bardos is that recognition and liberation are instantaneous. In other
words, one only needs to see beyond the illusion to be liberated from it. Consciousness not anchored in physical matter creates
faster than the speed of light. Songyol Rimpoche says in the Tibetan Book of Living and Dying, that once the awareness or
mind is free of the body at death, it vibrates 100’s of times faster, thus
thought manifests instantly; the projection of thought to create a reality. And is an old Esoteric teaching “Energy
follows thought, and thought creates matter” This is true when alive, and potently so after death.
Keeping in mind what residue our example client has died with,
it is those lingering thoughts, emotions and wounds that are worked with in the Bardo state in therapy. In this case he may
be guided first to realize that the life is over. He is reminded he is in the spirit world now, perhaps he would want to see
his family again. In this type of story because of the weight of his self-guilt he may fear seeing his family or villagers
again. In fact most likely when he died they did come for him out of the light. But because of the weight of his complex this
fragment of his soul stayed in a dark clouded space that reflected his emotional state and he did not see them. Suggesting
the thought of seeing them again will trigger the old feelings of shame and guilt that still linger. Very often in this type
of story those he loved will reappear, often they are filled with love and forgiveness and happy to see their lost loved one.
Meeting them again can be the start of the person lifting themselves out of despair, such reunions are often quite moving
and tearful, thus releasing much of the held in emotion.
Once release has started to happen the person reports feeling lighter, they
are able now to begin to look at the life more objectively. Healing in the spirit world takes on a life and momentum of it’s
own, often only gentle guidance and pointing in the right direction is needed for this process to unfold. Help is always available
we need to only ask for it. In this case his family and villagers might say to him “We know you tried” “Look
at us now, we are ok, we can all be together again” Maybe he will need to tell them all the sorrow he has carried how
sorry he is etc… I might choose to regress him back to the point when those deep recriminations began so he can remember
those things he told himself and see them more objectively with the spirits of his family and villagers helping him. In this
example, physical wounds and imprints were not a part of the original story, but this would also be the bardo where these
things would be reworked and allowed to be completed as well, pulling out the spear one died from, kicking off the attackers,
any trauma sustained in the physical body that caused an impulse or energy to become frozen can be resolved here. Progressively
each imprint on all the subtle bodies that caused any degree of shut down or wounding in the past life are worked through
here.
By now our example client is starting to feel better, or perhaps other layers
of emotion start to emerge, possibly he now realizes he carries anger at the political leaders for their incompetency or that
they didn’t act in time. He is encouraged to have it out with their spirits. They are also allowed to come forward and
say or express their part of the story. All sorts of realizations and aha’s can happen during this sort of process the
variations are limitless and are unique in each circumstance. It is astounding and quite a sacred experience to witness the
creativity and wisdom of the psyche in such a process and the healing power that is released is undeniable. So after the client
has gone through all the layers of imprints, I might encourage him to go to even “higher” Bardos. Here he may
meet with divine light beings and teachers, review and overview might happen here. Whole karmic patterns can be revealed and
the reasons behind that past life and current day patterns are illuminated from this higher perspective. Often in this stage
people recognize some of the past life characters in their story as current day people in their life.
Often after such a session the client will report immediate relief of the
buried feelings, in this case despair, self punishment and guilt. The reasons for such feelings that are not appropriate in
the current life have been placed and resolved where they belonged, in the past. Thus the current life can move forward into
fresh expression, in such an example it may manifest as finally finding satisfaction in ones work life or a meaningful career.
Further to this, the pain of loosing the family and guilt of feeling one has failed others is also relieved so that the polarity
point Cancer/4th house can also begin to be reached for.
From the previous example we can begin to see a bit of the complexity of
how one can stay stuck in past life wounds and how they affect the current life. One can also start to see with compassion,
the struggle each soul goes through just to begin to reach towards manifesting it’s evolutionary intentions. In this
example client, so much of his life force was bound in Capricornian paralysis, can’t move forward, can’t move
back. Because of that, neither archetype on the karmic axis Capricorn or Cancer were able to manifest in a healthy way in
the current life, both being blocked by the energy bound up in the wound.
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